Too Loud to Be Alone

The story

My bedroom was so quiet it screamed when I breathed out. So I laced my boots and walked into a room where nobody knew my name, and the bass held my spine for me. I wasn't there for pleasure. I was there so I wouldn't go numb. Sometimes you lose yourself in motion and come back a little new.

Lyrics

It’s quiet in my bedroom
but it screams when I exhale
The silence shakes the windows
like a ghost that left a trail

So I lace my boots in rhythm
and I step into the light
The bass becomes a shelter
and the crowd becomes the night

No one here knows my name
That’s the point — that’s the balm
I’m a body, I’m a flame
And this noise feels like calm

Too loud to be alone
So I let the kick replace the moan
Every step becomes a breath
Every rhythm chases death

Too loud to be alone
But this silence is my throne
Let the bass forgive the past
Let the drop make nothing last

I dance like I’m dissolving
but I’m clearer than I seem
My tears mix with the strobe light
like a high-gloss lucid dream

You think I’m here for pleasure
but I’m here to not go numb
And I’ll trade a hundred heartbeats
just to feel the next bass drum

This floor is not salvation
but it helps me make it through
I lose myself in motion
and come back a little new

Too loud to be alone
But that’s the way I find my zone
Let the volume hold my spine
Let the light be my design

Too loud to be alone
So I sink into the tone
Every thump becomes a prayer
Every drop becomes repair

Maybe this is home now
Maybe noise is where I rest
Maybe silence isn’t healing
It’s just volume in a dress

Too loud to be alone
But somehow I feel known
With strangers close and lights that sting
I finally stop remembering

Too loud to be alone
And that’s the way I like it
Don’t whisper in the quiet
Let the beat be what ignites it

“Too loud to be alone…
but just right to be alive.”